I will think throughout the day,oh I should post this, or I hope I don't forget about that!
But this morning before I went to work, I was listening to 'Homesick' by MercyMe (its on my player to the left). It has been suck in my head all day and I do feel so homesick...................... from NJ actually!
It is weird because I have lived in Northern Ireland since the day I was born, and I only really went to America on vacation as a young child and teenager. I have always loved the country, but when I moved there for almost 2 years, I guess that was it!!!
A friend of mine always tells me that.......I came home, but I left my heart in NJ!! She says when I talk about NJ and the life I built there for myself, that I light up!! Hope she doesn't mean literally!! ha-ha
I have no idea what it is because there are loads of pro's and con's compared to Northern Ireland.....but at the same time......I just feel blue when I think about what I would be doing if I was still there.
I know part of it involves the man I love, because he is still out there and missing me. But a big part of me feeling homesick, just has to do with the way of life out there. So relaxed and laid back!
I loved it!!!! I feel like I was living a double life when I think of everything out there going on without me!! When visiting, it feels like I have never left!!
But when I leave, he hurt sets in all over again. Who knows maybe one day I will put my heart back in place and st move there!! Probably wont live in NJ but I know I want to live in America!! Especially since a certain special person is there, and I know God ha placed him in my life to stay!!
Well just thought I would post a more personal post today!
~Angel~
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